Two and half decades ago a boy was born. He did not know what he would end up being. He celebrates his birthday today. Many of his friends try to contact him on his birthday to wish him, But as always, he goes into a kind of hibernation on this day. The one day in entire calendar year that he does not like is this day. I tried to talk to him and know how he felt today.
It was difficult to talk to him. Somehow I convinced him to talk to me and share with me few things. There was a very serious expression on his face. He was wanting seclusion from all the things.
I asked "How are you feeling today?"
"Today I turn another year older and have lived another year successfully. Today I step onto another year and another journey with ups and downs. I am 25 years old now. Looking back at my past, I am trying to remember 25 best things that I have done until now. I try to list them. But I cant figure out any " he said.
"But why do you feel like that? "
He replied, "Today I realized that I have around 400 and odd friends. But I do not even have 25 people whom I can completely count on. 25. The number seems so good to hear. But today is the day that i start my true journey of life. All these years I have learnt the rules, learnt the tricks. learnt the pitfalls, and merciless results. Today I have decided to bring them in action. "
I did not know how to respond to that. I let him continue..
"Today when I looked back on my past, one thing that made me happy is the person that I have always been. I never compromised on my principles, on my key performing areas in every possible domain of my life. I realized how difficult it has been in the last 2.5 years. Sometimes what happens in few days or in a day changes the course for the life time and the same has happened to me in the course of last few months."
I said, "That's true. Some incidents or situations bring in changes that will change the momentum and direction of life. "
To which he replied with sternness in his voice "Today I have chosen to be the person I have always wanted to be. And 25 years from now, I will look back to this day and say only one thing. "I lived and did what I chose to be and do."
There was silence. It was the moment when both of us did not want to say anything. I was recollecting all that he said. "Today I have decided t bring them in action", "Today I decide the outcome of my next 25 years".. Those things just continue to echo in my mind.
Breaking the silence, he said "I turn 25 today and my goal just amplified 25 times. "
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
Unwanted..
Unwanted..
How many times in life have we really come across elements that we felt were never useful?
How many times did we feel that we were in an unwanted situations?
How many times did we feel that we did unwanted things?
How many times did we come across any such similar situations? Probably some were associated with situations, some with circumstances, some with things and mostly with humans.
On an average, in a day, I usually come across many such situations. If it were not relating to non living things around me, it would be with living things. I consider myself as different genre of a tree / herbs / shrubs. Most of the times, the so called unwanted things that I come across are most wanted for the person living in it. It then falls under my territory to decide if I want to be a part in it or not to be in it.
While I am waiting for my cab to pick me up, I see people loafing around on the street. I feel like why cant that person do something productive out of his life. And than I think again and say to myself "may be the person is doing something that probably I am not aware of."
While in the cab, some of my colleagues pass some stupid comments on traffic. I feel it is unwanted, But I think again, and that's when I realize that the person is actually venting out frustration.
While I am sitting at my desk and working diligently, I see some elements doing nothing and yet complaining when work is thrown at them. That is when I realize that I better not think too much about such irrelevant and non important things and carry on with my work.
One thing I have learnt being amidst all these unwanted situations is the fact that things have dual nature. What is important to me, might not be the same to the other person. What I see as the most wanted aspect of my life is definitely the unwanted aspect for someone else. It is this thought that keeps me driving for the next day and it does everyday.
It all depends on how we look at things and how we react to them. Unwanted or wanted, one thing that is common in both is the term "want" and that's what matters at the end.
How many times in life have we really come across elements that we felt were never useful?
How many times did we feel that we were in an unwanted situations?
How many times did we feel that we did unwanted things?
How many times did we come across any such similar situations? Probably some were associated with situations, some with circumstances, some with things and mostly with humans.
On an average, in a day, I usually come across many such situations. If it were not relating to non living things around me, it would be with living things. I consider myself as different genre of a tree / herbs / shrubs. Most of the times, the so called unwanted things that I come across are most wanted for the person living in it. It then falls under my territory to decide if I want to be a part in it or not to be in it.
While I am waiting for my cab to pick me up, I see people loafing around on the street. I feel like why cant that person do something productive out of his life. And than I think again and say to myself "may be the person is doing something that probably I am not aware of."
While in the cab, some of my colleagues pass some stupid comments on traffic. I feel it is unwanted, But I think again, and that's when I realize that the person is actually venting out frustration.
While I am sitting at my desk and working diligently, I see some elements doing nothing and yet complaining when work is thrown at them. That is when I realize that I better not think too much about such irrelevant and non important things and carry on with my work.
One thing I have learnt being amidst all these unwanted situations is the fact that things have dual nature. What is important to me, might not be the same to the other person. What I see as the most wanted aspect of my life is definitely the unwanted aspect for someone else. It is this thought that keeps me driving for the next day and it does everyday.
It all depends on how we look at things and how we react to them. Unwanted or wanted, one thing that is common in both is the term "want" and that's what matters at the end.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Off Late..
Off Late..
There have been many incidents, many moments, many situations, many untold things, that kept recurring. They kept recurring, because there was a result that was in the making. Its not difficult for me to say what I want to say to anyone. I just say it. Its not difficult for me to express myself. I would just express myself.
I set out in my life, with a thought of making my career the best thing that I could give my life. I set out 2.5 years back. Little did I then know that things would just get messy, trivial, complicated as time proceeded. I set out thinking that i would have those around me still with me through to the end of my journey.
But things just change. Some momentarily. Some like a slow poison. Some like an impact, and some drastically. I realized that one thing that keeps on ticking irrespective of what happens around, its nothing but time. In my life until now, I did find people who were as good as time and they never stopped what happened around them. How I wish I attain such a phase in my life too. I have a dream and I will hang onto it. For I know, one day, it will be a reality.
Off late, all those thoughts, those motivational thoughts I used to feed myself, those principles I have been maintaining in me, those people I care a lot for, everything just seems to be shattered. I feel cheated in life now. I want to vent out my anger, but I cant. I want to show my hatredness towards certain things, but I prefer not to, as it will cause destruction to me. Its like a weed that is growing in me using my resources that were not meant for it. Off late, I have been changing. The metamorphosis has begun. But I wont let it continue. I want the essence in me to be me and nothing other than me. Off late, the series of battle with myself has begun. Off late, I have realized that if I do not accept loss, I wont be able to enjoy the happiness of a win.
There have been many incidents, many moments, many situations, many untold things, that kept recurring. They kept recurring, because there was a result that was in the making. Its not difficult for me to say what I want to say to anyone. I just say it. Its not difficult for me to express myself. I would just express myself.
I set out in my life, with a thought of making my career the best thing that I could give my life. I set out 2.5 years back. Little did I then know that things would just get messy, trivial, complicated as time proceeded. I set out thinking that i would have those around me still with me through to the end of my journey.
But things just change. Some momentarily. Some like a slow poison. Some like an impact, and some drastically. I realized that one thing that keeps on ticking irrespective of what happens around, its nothing but time. In my life until now, I did find people who were as good as time and they never stopped what happened around them. How I wish I attain such a phase in my life too. I have a dream and I will hang onto it. For I know, one day, it will be a reality.
Off late, all those thoughts, those motivational thoughts I used to feed myself, those principles I have been maintaining in me, those people I care a lot for, everything just seems to be shattered. I feel cheated in life now. I want to vent out my anger, but I cant. I want to show my hatredness towards certain things, but I prefer not to, as it will cause destruction to me. Its like a weed that is growing in me using my resources that were not meant for it. Off late, I have been changing. The metamorphosis has begun. But I wont let it continue. I want the essence in me to be me and nothing other than me. Off late, the series of battle with myself has begun. Off late, I have realized that if I do not accept loss, I wont be able to enjoy the happiness of a win.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Conflicts in thinking
If I tend to think the kind of a person I have been in my past and the kind of person I am in the present to what I would become in future, I see little or minimal change. Physically I have changed. But essence is still me. It does not matter to me what others think about me, for my struggle is mine.
If I were to mention or pen down my weakness, I guess you would be shocked as much as I am. Like a saying goes, "You are as strong as your weakest link", I am as strong as my weakest link too.
For me, seeing in perfection has become an addiction. Be it the way things are kept at home, be it the way things happen at work, be it the way things are done, ordered, said, expected, arranged, talked about. Be it anything and everything around me, I expect things to be just perfect and if they are not, I tend to streamline things so that they would be perfect.
In the process of being such a person and doing such things, I have lost many things, not materialistic, but the unrealistic highly valuable things, that probably wont be able to return, but on the contrary, I have gained confidence that my outcome of my behavior towards perfection is gearing up for a much bigger showdown. For I know one thing that is for sure. What I am today, is definitely a preview or a teaser of what I will be in days or years to come.
Many say to me, to change the way I am. Many say to me that I have changed. Many say to me that being honest in everything that I do and everything that I expect is a mere fantasy in this totally unmerciful and competitive world. I wish I could think like they think. But the walls of my brain with the content in it think for perfection. Its the tank of perfection in me.
I can only say one think to all. I wont change my persona on this and this will be my attire for many more years to come.
If I were to mention or pen down my weakness, I guess you would be shocked as much as I am. Like a saying goes, "You are as strong as your weakest link", I am as strong as my weakest link too.
For me, seeing in perfection has become an addiction. Be it the way things are kept at home, be it the way things happen at work, be it the way things are done, ordered, said, expected, arranged, talked about. Be it anything and everything around me, I expect things to be just perfect and if they are not, I tend to streamline things so that they would be perfect.
In the process of being such a person and doing such things, I have lost many things, not materialistic, but the unrealistic highly valuable things, that probably wont be able to return, but on the contrary, I have gained confidence that my outcome of my behavior towards perfection is gearing up for a much bigger showdown. For I know one thing that is for sure. What I am today, is definitely a preview or a teaser of what I will be in days or years to come.
Many say to me, to change the way I am. Many say to me that I have changed. Many say to me that being honest in everything that I do and everything that I expect is a mere fantasy in this totally unmerciful and competitive world. I wish I could think like they think. But the walls of my brain with the content in it think for perfection. Its the tank of perfection in me.
I can only say one think to all. I wont change my persona on this and this will be my attire for many more years to come.
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