When people achieve great success faster than others, they are immediately accussed of having good luck. If peple make a mess of their lives, largely due to their own shortcomings, they dismiss it as bad luck. All of life is like a casino. Some have had success in gaming tables of life, and some not. Most people, including me for many years, never understood the difference between Chance and Luck.
When i checked on it, I was surprised. It was quite eveident that I was surprised. Chance refers to gambling, to casinos, to blackjack,poker, slot mahcines, and horse racing. In games of chance, the outcome is totally and completely out of control for the player. There is little or no influnece on the result by th player. The level of risk is so high that the chance of winning it over a ong period of time is almost zero.
But, Luck is different, totally different. it is like the probabilities in action. Whever you see a person who has succeeded greatly, you would definitely notice a series or a chain of events that have happened in the past to achieve a particular outcome. The lucky person, for sure, did many things in combination, which staggeringly increased the likelihood that his or her desired goal could be achieved.
All problems appear very simple when solved. The great victorry of present was th result of a series of small victorie that went unnoticed.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Questions I ask myself
I dont remember who said this, but some one surely did say it. "You only have to succeed the last time". What a statement that is. I may fail over and over again, but all it takes is one big success to wipe out all my previous failures. But I guess, it is an after effect, and every such effect makes me ask certain questions to myself.
"What did I do right?", by asking so, I analyze every single thing that I did right in the situation, So what if it turned out to be a disaster? I must have done atleast one thing rightly. And thats definitely a motivation factor. I will surely smile when I think of a situatio when I was right.
"What would I do differently if I had the situation repeat or had to do all over again?", by asking so, I can appreciate life for teaching me valuable lessons that I was taught in the process. It makes me think of future and helps me motivate to do my best.
Everytime I ask these questions, I learn, understand, accept the facts, face the reality and grow. Despite the failures I have had in life, I would never want to lose out on enthusiasm, for I know its value, Nothing great was ever accomplished without enthusiasm in the history of mankind and nothing will ever be achieved without it either.
"What did I do right?", by asking so, I analyze every single thing that I did right in the situation, So what if it turned out to be a disaster? I must have done atleast one thing rightly. And thats definitely a motivation factor. I will surely smile when I think of a situatio when I was right.
"What would I do differently if I had the situation repeat or had to do all over again?", by asking so, I can appreciate life for teaching me valuable lessons that I was taught in the process. It makes me think of future and helps me motivate to do my best.
Everytime I ask these questions, I learn, understand, accept the facts, face the reality and grow. Despite the failures I have had in life, I would never want to lose out on enthusiasm, for I know its value, Nothing great was ever accomplished without enthusiasm in the history of mankind and nothing will ever be achieved without it either.
Fear and its manifestations
It is not what is going on around you but what is going on within you that is determining everything you are and everything you will ever accomplish. For that, one would need COURAGE. Like Winston Churchill once said "Courage is rightly considered the foremost of the virtues, for upon it all the others depend."
I had been thinking a lot on this. I was trying to figure out what is that undermines everryone from achieving their goals. What is it that counter-attacks courage so much so that the person is shattered and stripped off his/her self-confidence. Realistically speaking, the opposition of courage has been FEAR. Not since a day or two. Not since a year or a decade. It has been the same since the NOMAD age. Ever since human existed, like a two faced coin and a double edged sword, courage and fear go had in had. The emotion of fear will be and has always been the deadliest enemy to success.It sabotages possibilities and hopes of every individual.
I guess, it all goes with an individuality of a person. Until one is committed, there is a hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative and creativity, there is an elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills innumerable ideas and splendid plans.
I have always wondered why everyone has a typical pessismitic approach to the concept of fear. I beleive there is a good thing in it. A good thing of all the fears that you hold back. They are all learned. When i was kid, i never had a fear. I was unafraid, had no natural fears, except of falling down and darkness. I could express myself without an ounc eof doubt in my mind, I am sure it is with all as well. But as I grew up, parents, friends, teachers, people around me, all, one by one, began to manifest the power of fear in me. Each had a way of injecting fear in my mind. "Stop", "Get away from there!", "Put that down!!", "You are not supposed to do that" bla bla bla... and it went on..
As a result, at an early age, like any other kid, unknowingly, at my unconscious level, I developed a belief that I was too small to do the things and was probably weak and not yet ready. In other words, I started developing the fear of failure in me, which by the way, has now been tamed well and does not overpower me.
However, before I had even realised, the fear had started manifesting in different forms. Fear of rejection, Fears of disapproval and many more to the agony of my pain. I always beleived in few things. Mild fears of failure and rejection are abslutely good. They can act as a motivation fators for any individual to do what is necessary to succeed. Mild feelings are inadequacy and inferiority can drive a person to become the kind of person that the others will admire and respect. They kinda spur an individual. For example, if the fear of rejection is manifested in a valid consideration for the feelings and opinions of others, it can be helpful to an individual's position. Even the desire to be likede and accepted by others lies at the basis of respect for common courtesy, manners, politeness, and every other societal virtues that probably exist.
I tell myself that I dont have to do anything that I dont want to do and I can do anything that I really want to do. it kinda fills me with self confidence and helps me to take full control of my emotions and also helps me to override my conditional fears.
Like the actor Glen Ford once said, "If you do not do the thing you fear, the fear controls your life." But I like what Ralph Waldo Emerson told. Being a famous poet, what he said makes so much of sense. "Do the thing you fear and the death of fear is certain"
I had been thinking a lot on this. I was trying to figure out what is that undermines everryone from achieving their goals. What is it that counter-attacks courage so much so that the person is shattered and stripped off his/her self-confidence. Realistically speaking, the opposition of courage has been FEAR. Not since a day or two. Not since a year or a decade. It has been the same since the NOMAD age. Ever since human existed, like a two faced coin and a double edged sword, courage and fear go had in had. The emotion of fear will be and has always been the deadliest enemy to success.It sabotages possibilities and hopes of every individual.
I guess, it all goes with an individuality of a person. Until one is committed, there is a hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative and creativity, there is an elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills innumerable ideas and splendid plans.
I have always wondered why everyone has a typical pessismitic approach to the concept of fear. I beleive there is a good thing in it. A good thing of all the fears that you hold back. They are all learned. When i was kid, i never had a fear. I was unafraid, had no natural fears, except of falling down and darkness. I could express myself without an ounc eof doubt in my mind, I am sure it is with all as well. But as I grew up, parents, friends, teachers, people around me, all, one by one, began to manifest the power of fear in me. Each had a way of injecting fear in my mind. "Stop", "Get away from there!", "Put that down!!", "You are not supposed to do that" bla bla bla... and it went on..
As a result, at an early age, like any other kid, unknowingly, at my unconscious level, I developed a belief that I was too small to do the things and was probably weak and not yet ready. In other words, I started developing the fear of failure in me, which by the way, has now been tamed well and does not overpower me.
However, before I had even realised, the fear had started manifesting in different forms. Fear of rejection, Fears of disapproval and many more to the agony of my pain. I always beleived in few things. Mild fears of failure and rejection are abslutely good. They can act as a motivation fators for any individual to do what is necessary to succeed. Mild feelings are inadequacy and inferiority can drive a person to become the kind of person that the others will admire and respect. They kinda spur an individual. For example, if the fear of rejection is manifested in a valid consideration for the feelings and opinions of others, it can be helpful to an individual's position. Even the desire to be likede and accepted by others lies at the basis of respect for common courtesy, manners, politeness, and every other societal virtues that probably exist.
I tell myself that I dont have to do anything that I dont want to do and I can do anything that I really want to do. it kinda fills me with self confidence and helps me to take full control of my emotions and also helps me to override my conditional fears.
Like the actor Glen Ford once said, "If you do not do the thing you fear, the fear controls your life." But I like what Ralph Waldo Emerson told. Being a famous poet, what he said makes so much of sense. "Do the thing you fear and the death of fear is certain"
Monday, December 24, 2007
Kaitlin: Her quest for happiness(Part 3)
Birds were slowly getting back to their respective nests.. Sooner it would be the time of dusk. A faint tinge of orange colour was taking its shape in the open sky, which would soon be filled with stars. Temperature was dropping down and wind was becoming cooler and cooler. Little did Kaitlin know that she would be out of home for such a long time. With her heart pounding, watching a talking daffodil, trying to learn new things, which she was hoping for, she continued to listen to Bo.
Bo continued, "Life in itself has no meaning. Life is an opportunity to create meaning. Meaning is not to be discovered; it has to be created. You will find meaning only if you create it. It is not lying there somewhere behind the bushes, so you can go and you search a little bit and find it. It is not there like a rock that you will find. It is a poetry to be composed, it is a song to be sung, it is a dance to be danced."
Kaitlin was surprised. She knew there was a mystery, but never did she feel that it would be so easy to understand. She was curious to know more, listen to what Bo had to tell.
"What is the problem that is bothering your heart? In order for us to continue the conversation,I would like to know in specific, all the things, from scratch to what they are now, tell me everything."
"I do not know where to begin from. They are all so intertwined. Everything that appeared as a real image has now turned into a mirage. Every effort, every ounce of energy that I had put into everything that I had done until now, has all gone in vain."
There appeared a tear in her eye. She was in the process. Process of venting out the pain. Bo had seen this several times. This was the starting point of an end and a beginning. An end of suffering, and a beginning of happiness.
Kaitlin continued, "I have been wanting to achieve sucess a lot. I never left any stone unturned. Everyone says future is not written on stone. But I believed in scripting it on my own. Everything was good. I guess, it appeared to be good. Until.."
With a smile on his face, Bo said "Are you hurt because you did not get what you wanted? Gift, some materialistic thing, recognition, success, love, what is it?"
"You have lived in a certain way up to now - don't you want to live in a different way? You have thought in a certain way up to now - don't you want some new glimpses in your being? Then be alert and don't listen to the mind. Mind is your past constantly trying to control your present and your future. It is the dead past which goes on controlling the alive present. Just become alert about it." said Bo.
"The mind does it with this method: it says, "If you don't listen to me, you will not be as efficient as I am." If you do an old thing you can be more efficient because you have done it before. If you do a new thing you cannot be efficient. The mind goes on talking like an economist, an efficiency expert; it goes on saying, "This is easier to do. Why do it the hard way? This is the way of least resistance." said Bo.
Bo continued, "Remember, whenever you have two things, two alternatives, choose the new one. Choose the harder, choose the one in which more awareness will be needed. At the cost of efficiency always choose awareness, and you will create the situation in which meditation will become possible. These are all just situations. Meditation will happen - I am not saying that just by doing them you will get to meditation, but they will be helpful. They will create the necessary situation in you, without which meditation cannot happen. Be less efficient but more creative. Let that be the motive. Don't be bothered too much about utilitarian ends. Rather, constantly remember that you are not here in life to become a commodity. You are not here to become a utility, that is below dignity. Your are not here just to become more and more efficient. You are her e to become more and more alive; you are here to become more and more intelligent; you are here to become more and more happy, ecstatically happy. "
Kaitlin could not relate to what Bo was telling her. She said, "I have asked for so many things. But I have never got them. Infact, I never get them. I had less freinds throughout my life, but now I managed to have many. I compromised with myself and changed myself. I am now living in two worlds. One which reflects my true self. One which is me but never me. It is this world that is bringing everything down upon me. Its as though entire sky with all starts was falling on me"
"Interesting.."
"I some how have begun to feel that void in me which is resenting me from everything."
Bo realised it was time for her to let her know the real truth.
"Have you heard of everlasting happiness? Have you heard anyone in this entire world talk to you about tales of being happily every after? I am sure you would have seen many movies, heard stories, parables. But how many of them are really true? Did you ever try to think as to why such things are being talked about? Have you ever tried to know about it?"
"It is all a mere thought which was acted upon. I have seen and heard enough of those. For some, they motivate, and for some, its a mere movie story. For some the parables are fun, for some, its foolishness. I never rely on that and will never trust upon it." said Kaitlin.
Bo said "Whatever you are feeling is the perfect reflection of the process that is in the making. What you think, what you feel, and what you manifest is always a perfect match. Ask what you want, what u really want. An answer to what you are asking is what universe does for you. It will make it happen for you.You dont ned to know how you will get it, you must bring yourself in an alignment to what you are asking for. Dont feel despair and anger for what you are asking. Begin to feel for what you are asking. When you turn fantasy into fact, you can think more."
"How? How can I do that?"
"Start to have gratitude. What we think about and thank about is what we bring about. Have an attitude of gratitude. Try to visualise. When you do, you materialise. IF you have been there in mind, you will go there in the body", said Bo.
"I find it to difficult to be like that. i do not think I would be able to do that."
"Kaitlin, all it takes is a little effort from you that will change the entire course."
"Do you want me to have gratitude for my manager who does not recognise my skills? Do you want me to have gratitude for the guy? The one with whom I had fallen in love with? Do you want me to thank all my friends, my colleagues, my relatives who never even were there when i really needed them to me? "
"Decide what you want, believe you can have it. Close your eyes and feel you have it. Open eyes and be happy of what you have and let universe take care of the rest. When you have an inspired thought, trust it and act on it. It all depends on how to tame your mind to think and nurture the thought that is developing in you."
"Its hard. it is really hard" sighed Kaitlin..
"Everyone falls in love,and then falls out too.The way to understanding love is rising in love .One must not be stuck with materialistic manifestations of Love. By falling in love you remain a child, by rising in love you mature. And by and by, love becomes not a relationship, it becomes a state of your being. Then it is not that you love this and you dont love that , no. You are simply love, whatsoever is happening, you give your love to it. You touch a rock and you touch as if you r touching ur beloved's body. You look at the tree and u look as u r looking at ur beloved's face. It becomes a state of being, not that you are in love. Now you are love. This is rising, this is not falling."
Bo continued, "Love is beautiful when you rise through it,and love becomes dirty and ugly when you fall through it. And sooner or later you will find that it proves poisonous, it becomes a bondage.You have been caught in it, your freedom has been crushed, your wings have been cut, now you are no more free. By falling in love, you become a possession; you posses and you allow somebody to possess you. You become a thing and you try to convert the other person, you have fallen in love with ,into a thing."
"Look at the husband and wife. They both have become like things, they are no more person. Both are trying to possess each other. Only things can be possesed. A person can never be. There is a clash, then they both become basically enemies.Then they are destructive to each other .Everyone goes on trying to posses the beloved,the lover.This is no longer love, in face when you possess a person, you hate, you destroy. Love should give freedom. Love is freedom. Love will make the beloved more and more free. Love will give wings and love will open the vast sky. It cannot become a prison, an enclosure. "
"Was this the way you have been?", questioned Bo.
Kaitlin was mesmerized with the words of Bo. She was now beginning to realise. Feel and understand and connect to what Bo has been trying to tell her. Because she asked questions, she got answers. Because she refused to believe, she understood and accepted reality.
"There is a saying, 'For every dark cloud there is a silver lining and sun eventually shines'. I guess, I was destined to have this conversation with you. This indeed has made me realise where I have been going wrong and how I have been growing wrong. There were times when i trusted my abilities, had faith that I would succeed, but my thought was not in alignment with my deed. This was the same in my personal life as well as professional life. At times, I did feel like giving it all up, and I did too."
Kaitlin continued, "I understand feeling as small and insignificant as humanly possible and how it can ache in places in me that I dint know it was existing in me. No matter what I had done, I still went to sleep, knowing everything, thinking everything and wondering where things went wrong."
There was a resurgence, a new beginning, a new era, a new confindence, a new passion for success in the eyes of Kaitlin. Bo, on seeing the change and effect of the conversation, smiled, for he knew, he made a difference on another soul.
He said, "I know it is hard to believe when anyone says 'I know how you feel', but I actually know how you feel."
There was silence. For few minutes, kaitlin felt, there was something very tranquile about the place, about the environment around her. It was filled with optimism and only streak of negative engery that was present was that of hers. But, it was slowly fading and eventually, it wil die out too.
The dawn had disappeared and the stars had begun to shine, There was darkness hovering over the field of daffodils and the grass went numb. There was a street light glowing at certain distance. Kaitlin got up, with a smile on her face and wiped the marks that tears had laid on her beautiful face.
"If i come here again, and keep coming here every now and then, will you continue to talk to me?"
"I will not assure you on that. But, I will surely be there when you need me the most, in those tuff and trivial and painful times. To give you what you need the most. Console. I will be there."
For the first time during that day, Kaitlin smiled whole heartedly, took a few steps towards Bo, held him in her hands, gave a kiss, and said "I will come again." and started to walk back home.
Though it was darkness and stars were shining everywhere, her face shone as bright as a diamond, for she was renewed, like an eagle is back with new wings and new beak. She was ready to conquer her happiness, for she new the path. Her real quest for happiness had just begun..
Bo continued, "Life in itself has no meaning. Life is an opportunity to create meaning. Meaning is not to be discovered; it has to be created. You will find meaning only if you create it. It is not lying there somewhere behind the bushes, so you can go and you search a little bit and find it. It is not there like a rock that you will find. It is a poetry to be composed, it is a song to be sung, it is a dance to be danced."
Kaitlin was surprised. She knew there was a mystery, but never did she feel that it would be so easy to understand. She was curious to know more, listen to what Bo had to tell.
"What is the problem that is bothering your heart? In order for us to continue the conversation,I would like to know in specific, all the things, from scratch to what they are now, tell me everything."
"I do not know where to begin from. They are all so intertwined. Everything that appeared as a real image has now turned into a mirage. Every effort, every ounce of energy that I had put into everything that I had done until now, has all gone in vain."
There appeared a tear in her eye. She was in the process. Process of venting out the pain. Bo had seen this several times. This was the starting point of an end and a beginning. An end of suffering, and a beginning of happiness.
Kaitlin continued, "I have been wanting to achieve sucess a lot. I never left any stone unturned. Everyone says future is not written on stone. But I believed in scripting it on my own. Everything was good. I guess, it appeared to be good. Until.."
With a smile on his face, Bo said "Are you hurt because you did not get what you wanted? Gift, some materialistic thing, recognition, success, love, what is it?"
"You have lived in a certain way up to now - don't you want to live in a different way? You have thought in a certain way up to now - don't you want some new glimpses in your being? Then be alert and don't listen to the mind. Mind is your past constantly trying to control your present and your future. It is the dead past which goes on controlling the alive present. Just become alert about it." said Bo.
"The mind does it with this method: it says, "If you don't listen to me, you will not be as efficient as I am." If you do an old thing you can be more efficient because you have done it before. If you do a new thing you cannot be efficient. The mind goes on talking like an economist, an efficiency expert; it goes on saying, "This is easier to do. Why do it the hard way? This is the way of least resistance." said Bo.
Bo continued, "Remember, whenever you have two things, two alternatives, choose the new one. Choose the harder, choose the one in which more awareness will be needed. At the cost of efficiency always choose awareness, and you will create the situation in which meditation will become possible. These are all just situations. Meditation will happen - I am not saying that just by doing them you will get to meditation, but they will be helpful. They will create the necessary situation in you, without which meditation cannot happen. Be less efficient but more creative. Let that be the motive. Don't be bothered too much about utilitarian ends. Rather, constantly remember that you are not here in life to become a commodity. You are not here to become a utility, that is below dignity. Your are not here just to become more and more efficient. You are her e to become more and more alive; you are here to become more and more intelligent; you are here to become more and more happy, ecstatically happy. "
Kaitlin could not relate to what Bo was telling her. She said, "I have asked for so many things. But I have never got them. Infact, I never get them. I had less freinds throughout my life, but now I managed to have many. I compromised with myself and changed myself. I am now living in two worlds. One which reflects my true self. One which is me but never me. It is this world that is bringing everything down upon me. Its as though entire sky with all starts was falling on me"
"Interesting.."
"I some how have begun to feel that void in me which is resenting me from everything."
Bo realised it was time for her to let her know the real truth.
"Have you heard of everlasting happiness? Have you heard anyone in this entire world talk to you about tales of being happily every after? I am sure you would have seen many movies, heard stories, parables. But how many of them are really true? Did you ever try to think as to why such things are being talked about? Have you ever tried to know about it?"
"It is all a mere thought which was acted upon. I have seen and heard enough of those. For some, they motivate, and for some, its a mere movie story. For some the parables are fun, for some, its foolishness. I never rely on that and will never trust upon it." said Kaitlin.
Bo said "Whatever you are feeling is the perfect reflection of the process that is in the making. What you think, what you feel, and what you manifest is always a perfect match. Ask what you want, what u really want. An answer to what you are asking is what universe does for you. It will make it happen for you.You dont ned to know how you will get it, you must bring yourself in an alignment to what you are asking for. Dont feel despair and anger for what you are asking. Begin to feel for what you are asking. When you turn fantasy into fact, you can think more."
"How? How can I do that?"
"Start to have gratitude. What we think about and thank about is what we bring about. Have an attitude of gratitude. Try to visualise. When you do, you materialise. IF you have been there in mind, you will go there in the body", said Bo.
"I find it to difficult to be like that. i do not think I would be able to do that."
"Kaitlin, all it takes is a little effort from you that will change the entire course."
"Do you want me to have gratitude for my manager who does not recognise my skills? Do you want me to have gratitude for the guy? The one with whom I had fallen in love with? Do you want me to thank all my friends, my colleagues, my relatives who never even were there when i really needed them to me? "
"Decide what you want, believe you can have it. Close your eyes and feel you have it. Open eyes and be happy of what you have and let universe take care of the rest. When you have an inspired thought, trust it and act on it. It all depends on how to tame your mind to think and nurture the thought that is developing in you."
"Its hard. it is really hard" sighed Kaitlin..
"Everyone falls in love,and then falls out too.The way to understanding love is rising in love .One must not be stuck with materialistic manifestations of Love. By falling in love you remain a child, by rising in love you mature. And by and by, love becomes not a relationship, it becomes a state of your being. Then it is not that you love this and you dont love that , no. You are simply love, whatsoever is happening, you give your love to it. You touch a rock and you touch as if you r touching ur beloved's body. You look at the tree and u look as u r looking at ur beloved's face. It becomes a state of being, not that you are in love. Now you are love. This is rising, this is not falling."
Bo continued, "Love is beautiful when you rise through it,and love becomes dirty and ugly when you fall through it. And sooner or later you will find that it proves poisonous, it becomes a bondage.You have been caught in it, your freedom has been crushed, your wings have been cut, now you are no more free. By falling in love, you become a possession; you posses and you allow somebody to possess you. You become a thing and you try to convert the other person, you have fallen in love with ,into a thing."
"Look at the husband and wife. They both have become like things, they are no more person. Both are trying to possess each other. Only things can be possesed. A person can never be. There is a clash, then they both become basically enemies.Then they are destructive to each other .Everyone goes on trying to posses the beloved,the lover.This is no longer love, in face when you possess a person, you hate, you destroy. Love should give freedom. Love is freedom. Love will make the beloved more and more free. Love will give wings and love will open the vast sky. It cannot become a prison, an enclosure. "
"Was this the way you have been?", questioned Bo.
Kaitlin was mesmerized with the words of Bo. She was now beginning to realise. Feel and understand and connect to what Bo has been trying to tell her. Because she asked questions, she got answers. Because she refused to believe, she understood and accepted reality.
"There is a saying, 'For every dark cloud there is a silver lining and sun eventually shines'. I guess, I was destined to have this conversation with you. This indeed has made me realise where I have been going wrong and how I have been growing wrong. There were times when i trusted my abilities, had faith that I would succeed, but my thought was not in alignment with my deed. This was the same in my personal life as well as professional life. At times, I did feel like giving it all up, and I did too."
Kaitlin continued, "I understand feeling as small and insignificant as humanly possible and how it can ache in places in me that I dint know it was existing in me. No matter what I had done, I still went to sleep, knowing everything, thinking everything and wondering where things went wrong."
There was a resurgence, a new beginning, a new era, a new confindence, a new passion for success in the eyes of Kaitlin. Bo, on seeing the change and effect of the conversation, smiled, for he knew, he made a difference on another soul.
He said, "I know it is hard to believe when anyone says 'I know how you feel', but I actually know how you feel."
There was silence. For few minutes, kaitlin felt, there was something very tranquile about the place, about the environment around her. It was filled with optimism and only streak of negative engery that was present was that of hers. But, it was slowly fading and eventually, it wil die out too.
The dawn had disappeared and the stars had begun to shine, There was darkness hovering over the field of daffodils and the grass went numb. There was a street light glowing at certain distance. Kaitlin got up, with a smile on her face and wiped the marks that tears had laid on her beautiful face.
"If i come here again, and keep coming here every now and then, will you continue to talk to me?"
"I will not assure you on that. But, I will surely be there when you need me the most, in those tuff and trivial and painful times. To give you what you need the most. Console. I will be there."
For the first time during that day, Kaitlin smiled whole heartedly, took a few steps towards Bo, held him in her hands, gave a kiss, and said "I will come again." and started to walk back home.
Though it was darkness and stars were shining everywhere, her face shone as bright as a diamond, for she was renewed, like an eagle is back with new wings and new beak. She was ready to conquer her happiness, for she new the path. Her real quest for happiness had just begun..
Friday, December 21, 2007
Kaitlin: Her quest for happiness(Part 2)
Wind was blowing, the breeze was traversing in a very peculiear manner. It was as though all the engery in it was focussed on one place. Beside the field of thousands of daffodils, lay a green pasture of excellent grass.
Kaitlin was sitting there, with her arms covering her knees and her head resting over her arms. She was weeping. The breeze was playing games with her lovely hair, soft n tender as silk. Eyebrows like an overview of swedish terrains, palms as soft as a year old baby, eyes as clear as a fresh stream of water.. Unique yet so much similar. As fair as the snow of the first snow fall in the Alps, she was simply beautiful.
The only thing that was wrong with her at that moment was the sadness she had in her heart, which made her appear very hurt. She did try to resent it. But it was just too much for her to overpower it. Little did she know that she was supposed to use emotions to her favour and not let emotions make use of her. Tears just started rolling out. They never ceased to stop. She was deeply hurt.
Bo, on noticing every little aspect and considering the situation she was in, started making a move. he had a plan in place. A much structured approach. We all know how weak emotions are and how easy it is for a person to misunderstand while in emotional void. Bo knew this fact to the core of his heart. In order to ensure that she gets no more hurt, made a calculated move.
"Can I ask the reason for your sorrow?" Kaitlin looked around. Found no one. She thought that may be it was inner conscience that was trying to talk to her. She ignored it. "I guess you did not notice me. My name is Bo. I think I can help you."
Kaitlin was now stunned. She had no clue where the voices were coming from. They just started out of nowhere, and were continually coming in. She got up and looked around eagerly. She said "Show me yourself. I do not talk to strangers. I would never converse with those who try to be in the dark and talk to others."
"If you look around and try to be as pure in thinking as you are, you would probably see me standing right in front of you."
"I have enough things to worry about and a life to live. I may not be able to find you if you are an invisible thing. I can hear you. But i chose not to talk because i have better things to worry about", replied Kaitlin.
"There is no meaning existing in life -- one has to create it. Only if you create it will you discover it. It has to be invented first. It is not lying there like a rock; it has to be created like a song. It is not a thing; it is a significance that you bring through your consciousness. Don't wait for it. It never comes by just waiting. You might have to take chances. In order to get what you have never had, you need to do what you have never done", said Bo and smiled.
At this moment, Kaitlin was surprised and saw a daffodil right infront of her, standing like a cornerstone of an unimaginable structure. Her eyes just widened. She took few steps back and uttered in total disbelief, "What are you? Do not come near me!!"
Bo was anticipating this response, for this was the same way everyone had responded. He knew what was going on in her mind. He said, "Please calm down. I am not one to hurt you. I know I can help you and trust me, you will be happy. You just have to have hope and never let the faith die."
Many things were now going on in her mind. She thought "This has been the most disastrous day., I have had so much to deal with. Now I am standing in front of a talking daffodil. Where is this taking me to? What path am I treading upon?"
But she knew a secret. "Sometimes, it is better to share sorrows, grief, pain, sadness with strangers than near ones. Atleast this erases an insecure thought as to what the other person might think about you. She decided to talk to Bo.
"I am not sure if I should really be telling you what I am going through, However, considering I dont know you, and probably we might never meet again, i will let you know.."
Bo smiled. For he knew, he was in the right direction and he was confident about solving a simple problem which appeared to be bigger than what it actually was.
"Off late, i have lost interest in life. I have lost its meaning. I have been defeated. I have experienced failure in everything I do. Those close to me never realised how honest I was. They did not even care to ask me what I was going through..."
Instead of interrupting her, Bo said "Go on.. Finish what you really want to talk about. I am listening."
"I was happy. I was confident. I had a faith in me that i would get wat I want in life, and have all the things I have always wished to have. Until disaster struck. Not once, not twice, not thrice, every time. "
"What makes you think you do not deserve what you have at the moment?"
"I dont know if I am really worth going through all these things. Why do you think i should go through these things? What wrong have I done?"
Bo replied "Do you really want to know? Are you ready to listen and understand what I am going to tel you now?"
"If that is going to help me get out of the situations I am in, I am more than ready for it."
Bo knew that this was the time for him to manifest this excellence and display his extraordinary capability to approach and resolve.
He said "You have every right to go and share with everyone what i am going to tel you. Just ensure that you have grasped what I am going to tell you."
To be continued..
Kaitlin was sitting there, with her arms covering her knees and her head resting over her arms. She was weeping. The breeze was playing games with her lovely hair, soft n tender as silk. Eyebrows like an overview of swedish terrains, palms as soft as a year old baby, eyes as clear as a fresh stream of water.. Unique yet so much similar. As fair as the snow of the first snow fall in the Alps, she was simply beautiful.
The only thing that was wrong with her at that moment was the sadness she had in her heart, which made her appear very hurt. She did try to resent it. But it was just too much for her to overpower it. Little did she know that she was supposed to use emotions to her favour and not let emotions make use of her. Tears just started rolling out. They never ceased to stop. She was deeply hurt.
Bo, on noticing every little aspect and considering the situation she was in, started making a move. he had a plan in place. A much structured approach. We all know how weak emotions are and how easy it is for a person to misunderstand while in emotional void. Bo knew this fact to the core of his heart. In order to ensure that she gets no more hurt, made a calculated move.
"Can I ask the reason for your sorrow?" Kaitlin looked around. Found no one. She thought that may be it was inner conscience that was trying to talk to her. She ignored it. "I guess you did not notice me. My name is Bo. I think I can help you."
Kaitlin was now stunned. She had no clue where the voices were coming from. They just started out of nowhere, and were continually coming in. She got up and looked around eagerly. She said "Show me yourself. I do not talk to strangers. I would never converse with those who try to be in the dark and talk to others."
"If you look around and try to be as pure in thinking as you are, you would probably see me standing right in front of you."
"I have enough things to worry about and a life to live. I may not be able to find you if you are an invisible thing. I can hear you. But i chose not to talk because i have better things to worry about", replied Kaitlin.
"There is no meaning existing in life -- one has to create it. Only if you create it will you discover it. It has to be invented first. It is not lying there like a rock; it has to be created like a song. It is not a thing; it is a significance that you bring through your consciousness. Don't wait for it. It never comes by just waiting. You might have to take chances. In order to get what you have never had, you need to do what you have never done", said Bo and smiled.
At this moment, Kaitlin was surprised and saw a daffodil right infront of her, standing like a cornerstone of an unimaginable structure. Her eyes just widened. She took few steps back and uttered in total disbelief, "What are you? Do not come near me!!"
Bo was anticipating this response, for this was the same way everyone had responded. He knew what was going on in her mind. He said, "Please calm down. I am not one to hurt you. I know I can help you and trust me, you will be happy. You just have to have hope and never let the faith die."
Many things were now going on in her mind. She thought "This has been the most disastrous day., I have had so much to deal with. Now I am standing in front of a talking daffodil. Where is this taking me to? What path am I treading upon?"
But she knew a secret. "Sometimes, it is better to share sorrows, grief, pain, sadness with strangers than near ones. Atleast this erases an insecure thought as to what the other person might think about you. She decided to talk to Bo.
"I am not sure if I should really be telling you what I am going through, However, considering I dont know you, and probably we might never meet again, i will let you know.."
Bo smiled. For he knew, he was in the right direction and he was confident about solving a simple problem which appeared to be bigger than what it actually was.
"Off late, i have lost interest in life. I have lost its meaning. I have been defeated. I have experienced failure in everything I do. Those close to me never realised how honest I was. They did not even care to ask me what I was going through..."
Instead of interrupting her, Bo said "Go on.. Finish what you really want to talk about. I am listening."
"I was happy. I was confident. I had a faith in me that i would get wat I want in life, and have all the things I have always wished to have. Until disaster struck. Not once, not twice, not thrice, every time. "
"What makes you think you do not deserve what you have at the moment?"
"I dont know if I am really worth going through all these things. Why do you think i should go through these things? What wrong have I done?"
Bo replied "Do you really want to know? Are you ready to listen and understand what I am going to tel you now?"
"If that is going to help me get out of the situations I am in, I am more than ready for it."
Bo knew that this was the time for him to manifest this excellence and display his extraordinary capability to approach and resolve.
He said "You have every right to go and share with everyone what i am going to tel you. Just ensure that you have grasped what I am going to tell you."
To be continued..
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Kaitlin: Her quest for happiness(Part 1)
Everyone of us, atleast once in our lifetime so far, would have come across this feeling. How difficult is it for us to have this feeling? I am very much sure about what I have said. You would have thought as to why dont I get what I have asked for? Why? Did i do something wrong? Did I really deserve it? Was there something I missed out on? Did I ask something that required more efforts than What I had asked for? Why am I not getting What I want and the things that I have worked hardly, whole heartedly? Why? Why me? Of all, Why does this happen to me?
Well my friend. what I am going to tell you now, is a story of a girl named Kaitlin. Nice name huh? She was as nice as her name is. This story helped me out in many ways and I guess, it will be the same for you as well.
Beyond the world of anxiety, tensions, insecurities, in the world ot tranquility and serenity, lived a girl named Kaitlin. She was pretty. She was intelligent. She was quick witted. She was in the good books of everyone around her. Her neighbours loved her as a person, her parents were proud of her. She was the charm in her world. Untill one day..
She was sitting by the daffodils and the lids of her vision gave way for the saline water. She could not stop crying.. She wept, wept, wept and wept. she asked the same questions.. Why ..... Nonetheless, there was no angel that came to her rescue. No alladin's lamp for a genie to pop out and fulfill her wishes. No storms or heavy rains as a response to her grief from the mother nature. Nothing supernatual happened.
Among the thousands of daffodils, there was this one lovely, beautiful daffodil (His name was BO) who noticed Kaitlin. In the world of Daffodils, Bo was the king and had so many princess droooling over him. He knew how to tackle the worldy problems. Bo had seen many people walk past the field, some laughing, some showing their anger, some crying.. But Bo had never seen anyone as hurted as Kaitlin was.
Bo knew one thing. He could solve kaitlin's problem. Just like he had solved every problem of the daffodils in his world and of those who walked past the field. Bo, his very name brings a sense of hapy feeling in anyone. If there was any problem, first thing that any one would think is Bo. He had the ability, that quest, that thirst, a honest thought, of making the world worry free. Every effort he made, he succeeded. Everyone wondered as to how he could do that. Failure was something he had never seen. And it was few years that he had seen failure.
Whenever Bo used to see someone cry, he used to remember those days when he was in the same position. He once wept too. He once had failures too. It was his fate that gave him his destiny that was so different from others. Unlike others, he learnt from his mistakes and took control of his future. We all know that future is not written on stone. He knew that. Except for the fact that he started sculpting his future on a stone he desired the most. He called that stone as his Life.
Yet again. Bo decided to help. To let another person come out of the clutches of grief sorrow and pain. He did what he was best at. He decided to talk to Kaitlin...
To be continued..
Well my friend. what I am going to tell you now, is a story of a girl named Kaitlin. Nice name huh? She was as nice as her name is. This story helped me out in many ways and I guess, it will be the same for you as well.
Beyond the world of anxiety, tensions, insecurities, in the world ot tranquility and serenity, lived a girl named Kaitlin. She was pretty. She was intelligent. She was quick witted. She was in the good books of everyone around her. Her neighbours loved her as a person, her parents were proud of her. She was the charm in her world. Untill one day..
She was sitting by the daffodils and the lids of her vision gave way for the saline water. She could not stop crying.. She wept, wept, wept and wept. she asked the same questions.. Why ..... Nonetheless, there was no angel that came to her rescue. No alladin's lamp for a genie to pop out and fulfill her wishes. No storms or heavy rains as a response to her grief from the mother nature. Nothing supernatual happened.
Among the thousands of daffodils, there was this one lovely, beautiful daffodil (His name was BO) who noticed Kaitlin. In the world of Daffodils, Bo was the king and had so many princess droooling over him. He knew how to tackle the worldy problems. Bo had seen many people walk past the field, some laughing, some showing their anger, some crying.. But Bo had never seen anyone as hurted as Kaitlin was.
Bo knew one thing. He could solve kaitlin's problem. Just like he had solved every problem of the daffodils in his world and of those who walked past the field. Bo, his very name brings a sense of hapy feeling in anyone. If there was any problem, first thing that any one would think is Bo. He had the ability, that quest, that thirst, a honest thought, of making the world worry free. Every effort he made, he succeeded. Everyone wondered as to how he could do that. Failure was something he had never seen. And it was few years that he had seen failure.
Whenever Bo used to see someone cry, he used to remember those days when he was in the same position. He once wept too. He once had failures too. It was his fate that gave him his destiny that was so different from others. Unlike others, he learnt from his mistakes and took control of his future. We all know that future is not written on stone. He knew that. Except for the fact that he started sculpting his future on a stone he desired the most. He called that stone as his Life.
Yet again. Bo decided to help. To let another person come out of the clutches of grief sorrow and pain. He did what he was best at. He decided to talk to Kaitlin...
To be continued..
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
State of mind
I dont know if I would be able to write the real state of my mind., For all these days I have been thinking that I must write what i feel to write about. This time, it is different, I want to write what I am wanting to write. The state of my mind. But however, I find there is a complete charismatic feeling when a person tends to explain what is going on in his/her mind.
To begin with, many things have pre-occupied. Some tending to cause an eternal battle within me, some tending to cause a sense of reliability and dependance, while others tend to cause a void in me. Some thoughts pull me back into my past, while others bring me back to reality. Like the rope in tug of war, I am being swung either ways every now and then.
Like a typical piscean, I guess, I was finding solace in my dream world. Finding joy in my own little accomplishments, happiness and fun. I have always wanted to know things and understand them. But not until late when i started in believing, Their was drastic change in things around me, I realised. Do not believe in beilieving. I adopted and adapted myself to new approach. I began to know and knowing is totally different dimension. It starts from doubt, the moment you believe in something, you have stopped inquiring, belief is the most poisonous thing to destroy human intelligence! And now i am back to where I belong and found happiness in the most strangest ways I could possible think of.
At times my mind complained I was alone. But I realised that being alone I was spending time with myself and did not require world to play a part in it. When I began to feel lonely, I found joy in the way things are. The roses bloom so beautifully because they are not trying to become lotuses. And the lotuses bloom so beautifully because they have not heard the legends about other flowers. Everything in nature goes so beautifully in accord, because nobody is trying to compete with anybody, nobody is trying to become anybody else. Everything is the way it is. This thought and the observation has now made me a much better person than I used to be.
As I have always told, so will I this time too. "Just be yourself and remember you cannot be anything else, whatsoever you do, All effort is futile. "
To begin with, many things have pre-occupied. Some tending to cause an eternal battle within me, some tending to cause a sense of reliability and dependance, while others tend to cause a void in me. Some thoughts pull me back into my past, while others bring me back to reality. Like the rope in tug of war, I am being swung either ways every now and then.
Like a typical piscean, I guess, I was finding solace in my dream world. Finding joy in my own little accomplishments, happiness and fun. I have always wanted to know things and understand them. But not until late when i started in believing, Their was drastic change in things around me, I realised. Do not believe in beilieving. I adopted and adapted myself to new approach. I began to know and knowing is totally different dimension. It starts from doubt, the moment you believe in something, you have stopped inquiring, belief is the most poisonous thing to destroy human intelligence! And now i am back to where I belong and found happiness in the most strangest ways I could possible think of.
At times my mind complained I was alone. But I realised that being alone I was spending time with myself and did not require world to play a part in it. When I began to feel lonely, I found joy in the way things are. The roses bloom so beautifully because they are not trying to become lotuses. And the lotuses bloom so beautifully because they have not heard the legends about other flowers. Everything in nature goes so beautifully in accord, because nobody is trying to compete with anybody, nobody is trying to become anybody else. Everything is the way it is. This thought and the observation has now made me a much better person than I used to be.
As I have always told, so will I this time too. "Just be yourself and remember you cannot be anything else, whatsoever you do, All effort is futile. "
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